Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Hallelujah! Light Has Come

During the past few weeks I have been spending a lot of time with Jesus, alone, in quietness, reflecting on our journey with the birth and loss of Abbie. I felt the Lord calling me to do this, to turn to the One who can heal my hurts, dry my tears, and help me to move forward from here. I am blessed with many weeks off of work right now for my physical recovery from the surgery, and have heard God's voice telling me to use this precious time to focus on emotional and spiritual recovery as well. So I have been obedient, and have seen the fruits of this disciplined focus, time and time again over these weeks.

Early in this time of reflection. I was listening to Christmas music on Pandora while sitting in a Caribou Coffee, spending time in God's Word and also working on some updates to this blog.  The song by BarlowGirl, "Hallelujah, Light Has Come" came on, and stopped me from everything I was doing. The song is sung in the virgin Mary's voice, singing to her newborn son Jesus who will save the world. However, many of the lyrics resonated with me about Abbie's short life also. I chose to write this post on the day I heard the song, but not to publish it until Christmas morning, as we celebrate the One who came into the world to save us all.

The prayer of my heart continues to be that our precious baby, Abigaile Grace, will truly be her Father's joy, in pointing as many as possible to the Savior of the world, who came to us so long ago as the most precious Baby of all. Both of their lives were short on this earth but their impact has been far-reaching.

Though I still don't understand the full purpose of why her life had to be so brief, I believe that heaven sent her to me, just as heaven sent Jesus to his mother Mary and to each one of us. I look forward to the day when I will see my beloved daughter again and when I will understand fully, as I am sure Mary did when she arrived in heaven to greet once again her beloved Son.

Peace and joy to each of you this Christmas - may you experience the true presence of Jesus, the Light who has come.


1 comment:

  1. Kristy,

    Thank you so much for sharing your heart. I'm a fellow bedrest mom, and have two little ones in heaven, although I never got to hold them I do know who is holding them now.

    This song has a special place in my heart and now even more meaning.

    Please know I'm praying for you and your family.

    Jac @ babEblessings